EMAIL TO ABU ABDULLAH

I am not sure exactly what I wrote to Abu Abdullah when he pulled out of our meeting this time but it went something like this.

I am sorry that our meeting has again not taken place and as you say it is my fault for not confirming. I'm afraid it never occurred to me that you would think that I would arrange a meeting with you and someone who has to come all the way from Oxford and not turn up. What on earth do you think I have been doing for the last year and a half? If you didn't want to do this you could have told me over a year ago and I might be a qualified teacher, or in Africa by now.

Another thing I do not understand is the fact that you are shy about cooperating with me yet you have totally cooperated with BBC and ITV news every time they come to Finsbury park when you know that all they will put on the TV is close up of your masked friends and anything you say which may be construed as threatening. If you worked for MI5 yourself you couldn't have engineered things better.

Another thing I don't understand is how you seem to think you are doing me some sort of favour by talking to me. You have the worlds media as a unified voice saying one thing about you, I thought you might appreciate one persons attempt to put the other side even if I am not a Muslim.

You told me that you have "already given me so much footage." What have you ever "given" me? I turned up week in week out of my own accord to film what I could see happening because I thought that you weren't terrorists.

As I have said, if I was going to stitch you up with my footage I'd have done it by now, instead I am being evicted over and over again, I have no idea where I will be living at Christmas.

What do you want me to do?